I had to sit with this one for few days to collect my thoughts and write a worthy review of this masterpiece cuz I can’t stop thinking about this book !!!!

This book was deeply strange, and Bonnie was one of the most unlikeable protagonists I have read in a long time. And yet, I understood her. I did not always agree with her choices, and many of them made me uncomfortable, but I could see exactly why she was making them.

I found Bonnie obsessive, rigid, and emotionally distant. I often felt frustrated by how closed off she was and how determined she was to stay alone. At the same time, I kept realizing that I was not reading about someone chasing happiness or indulgence. I was reading about someone chasing safety. I understood that her control, her routines, and her isolation were her way of surviving.

For me, this book was a powerful exploration of escapism. I saw Bonnie’s world as an extreme version of something I recognize in myself and in others. I understood the urge to escape into something familiar and predictable, especially when the real world feels overwhelming or hostile. I felt the sadness of watching escapism slowly turn into a prison, even when it starts as comfort.

What stayed with me the most was how this book handled the fear of being perceived. I felt that fear on every page. I understood why Bonnie wanted to exist without being seen, judged, or misunderstood. I felt how terrifying vulnerability was for her, and how much easier it felt to hide behind roles and scripts instead of allowing herself to be known.

Even when I did not like Bonnie, I never felt disconnected from her. I felt empathy instead of judgment. I felt unsettled, seen, and challenged as a reader. This book made me uncomfortable in the best way, and I have not stopped thinking about it since I finished.

In a literary landscape where I often feel female characters are flattened, softened, or reduced to familiar stereotypes, Bonnie felt like the opposite. I felt that she was allowed to be difficult, unlikable, obsessive, and deeply flawed without being punished or explained away. I felt that her interiority was taken seriously, that her fears and contradictions were given space, and that she existed fully as a person rather than a lesson or a symbol.