Chaotic

The narrator grows up inside the Lords, a secret society with no limit to its cruelty, where women are tolerated only for as long as the men have a use for them. Her father tells her she does not deserve to be seen. For most of her life she wishes for death as the only way out.

One night she takes control of her own life and wants someone to notice her. A Lord, Kashton Landon Pierce, rescues her. She offers him the only payment she thinks she has, her body, and runs once he is done with her.

Years later Kashton returns and wants to resume what they started. She is no longer the frightened woman he met. She has spent those years climbing out of a dark place and refuses to let any man pull her back, least of all a Spade brother. He promises her everything she has wanted.

Kashton works his way into her days and her dreams. He says he wants a pet to keep chained in the basement, a toy for his spare time. What she does not expect is to feel loved and put first.

Hope for a future she believes is impossible begins to form. This is a dark romance narrated in the first person, with a captor and captive dynamic and a menacing, tense mood. The world she lives in gives happiness only to take it back.